You know the feeling of being responsible for others' emotions?? Of feeling like the person who controls the moods of others..Yeah in a way it is sorta flattering..Yeah in a way it makes u feel special...really special..But just for those few moments..then it plain SUCKS!!!seriously...Kinda makes me feel like I am just here to please people and guard them from hurt..I mean WTF..I aint some Super duper beyatch n i dont particularly like to go about huting people..But,hey i like to live life my way..I like to wanna be able to talk to any friend i want whenever without thinking some ones feeling left out..I like to wanna do what i want without thinking of saving others of hurt..I like to wanna think of me sometimes too..
Lately it does seem like i am here to guard people from hurt..Its like i am deprived of my own choices..N that sure sucks for some one as outgoing and free as me..
If i slept off early,coz of which i dint pick your call...I have to deal wid the "y u ignoring me?" bullcrap!
If i wanted to spend quality time with a friend who was a lil upset...I have to deal with the "you dont care to say bye!!" nonsense!
If i wanted to stay home and study for a test instead of meeting up for coffee..I have to deal with the "you dont have time for me" drama!
If i am just off mood..for whatever reasons..sometimes nothing is wrong..sometimes its just the PMS n the hormones acting all weird n grumpy..I have to deal with other people getting blue coz i am..and i am made to be the one councelln instead of the reverse...
Dammm dammm pakao..
I feel tied down inspite of being single..
suxxx...m TIRED!!
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